Waking up.

I woke up feeling utterly miserable today.. Just yesterday I woke up for MSSD, and today tuition and coming days only for school. The end of MSSD really indicates that I or rather, we are all leaving high school soon. Sooner than you ever imagine.. thoughts during form 1 up to 4 are still fresh on my mind.. and now.. I will be leaving in like 6 months time.. I always wonder why do they actually feel sad.. Now I understand.. Now I am feeling it.. *sigh* Surely there's lots of ups and downs... but i really wish i could turn back time.. I don't really wanna grow up.. responsibilities to hold to the REAL world we will soon be facing.. ahh.. I don't like the idea at all.. 0_-"

And I just read my friend's blog who shall not be named.. his girlfriend is actually my friend too.. but they broke up when they are so far away, facing communication probs.. she left him for a new one.. who could be there for her all or most of the time.. If you love someone that deep like you said it... how could you possibly do that.. not like he's leaving for years.. but that one month surely has proven where your love worth.. boy.. you deserve a better one and tears felt my eyes reading it.. sigh* early morning.. it actually drew me back to memories where I,myself experienced... never wanna say a word.. never knew who to cry to.. which shoulder to hold on to before they start spreading worst and unwanted rumours.. reminds me the bad dreams I had throughout the 6 months of hell.. pointless life.. wake up thining about it and start sobbing till you fall asleep..

like they say.. cry yourself to bed.. words one said.. things one did.. attitude one showed like never before... it's all shown during that period..

I DON"T WANNA LEAVE HIGHSHOol.. :'(